Remembering Something that I Promised Myself I Would Never Forget

I went wandering yesterday. It had been a long time sense I simple wandered and I remembered something that I promised myself a long time ago back before God found me. Back when I only saw logic and nothing of faith. Back when I wandered.

I found in those times that wandering cleared my mind. The simple movement of the feet allowed for the mind to drift where it wanted to and where it needed to be. It had been I long time sense I walked without destination. Sense I simple lifted my legs and cut loose the anchor on my mind. I did it yesterday again and it was wonderful.

My blood is thick with the history of a people that were ill content with walls and permanency. I am a Norse man. A barbarian. A Viking. I have never been a person to enjoy walls or a solid roof. I find that my feet feel best on the fermenting needles of a pine forest. And my eyes are comforted my by the soft light of the dimmest stars of the sky. I enjoy moving. Some people enjoy driving other bike, still others running or jogging. Not I. I simply like to walk. I like to take my time and see what is around me and to watch the world transform as I am transformed in it.

So I walked yesterday and I remembered that I had once promised myself to live a life that was a wander. I have a good reasoning behind this. It was a promise from before I had faith but it fits perfectly with faith. My rational is that anything worth doing is not about the destination or the final outcome. It is about the journey that it took you on to get to that end. I my eyes life is, most certainly, worth doing, if it were not I would not try to live it. So this is what I want to see life as. Not as a means to an end but as a journey, an adventure. Death is only that end of that adventure. Or perhaps the start of a new one.

I found myself trying to figure out how to live like this how to live the adventure of life. I found three aspects that I need to work on in my own life to make my life a wandering one. Perhaps aspect is not the right word for them; they are more life guidelines for me.

1. Respect the past. Look at the past like you would an old beloved man. One that has lived a good full life with no regret. A man that you learn from but do not rely on. An old man who loved life and is loving it but will welcome death the same way that he welcomes the morning sun- a matter of fact. A man content and at peace with who he is. This is how I should look at the past. The past is this old man. Let the past die but remember it.
2. Now. Do it now. Let the world be as you want it to be. Force nothing. Let your words and actions come from nowhere but your heart because that is where God resides. That is where everything must come from. Let peace flow from the heart. Do not cling to now. When it is past let it go and when it comes hold it close. Live in the now because it is the only place where you can do anything about the where you sand in the world. It is the only place where you can affect your relationship with you peers and with God.
3. The future… God will do with that as is needed to be done. Simply have faith in that.

When you wander you simply put one foot out there and let it decide where it wants to take you. The path behind you is simply an experience and the path before you is ever changing. All that really matters is which direction that foot points. Whether it is pointed right or wrong. Wander life.

That was way to long but I need it to be.